I don't know that I will ever feel confident with this pregnancy. I am scared. I am not scared to admit this to you.
I'm afraid to buy maternity clothes, because what if I don't need them?
I'm afraid to buy baby items, because what if I don't need them?
We're afraid to talk about names, because what if we never get to use it?
I know that this fear is common after suffering a miscarriage, but I also know that this fear is not Godly. I know that God determined this day hundreds of years ago. He knew whether I would be pregnant or not, and He knows how this pregnancy will go.
But trusting Him is hard.
I know that it is worth it, and that I will be rewarded for my obedience, but oh, it is so hard.
Oh, sweet tiny dancer, we love you so, so much.