Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The Necklace

My therapist suggested I give the baby a name. Even though we didn't know what we were having, she told me to follow my instinct and pick a name. It didn't take a lot of thought, I knew the baby was a girl, and I knew we would have given her a name that started with the letter A.

And so she was to be my Angelina. My Angel.

I never told anyone (even Aaron) about this task I had been assigned, or the name I had picked, but when I talk to her, I call her Angelina. It has helped my grieving process tremendously. And I hadn't ever planned to tell anyone....

Back in October, Casey posted a picture of one of the couture pieces from The R House Etsy Shop. I emailed the link to Aaron and asked him to buy me one of the necklaces for my birthday, and to surprise me with what it said.

It came in the mail last week, and I didn't even want to peak because I love surprises! I couldn't wait for my birthday so I could see which one of the pieces he had chosen!

Last night, I was very sad and missing my baby so much. Aaron and I had a wonderful, heartfelt talk about all we'd been through, and I told him that my therapist had recommended I give the baby a name. After giving it some thought, he asked me if we could call her Angel. My tears turned to sobs as I told him I had been calling her that all along, and then he asked me if he could give me my birthday present a few days early.

angel

Of course. She's always been our Angel.


34 comments:

Adventures In Babywearing said...

Um, wow. That is awesome, Natalie. Many hugs.

Steph

Jess :) said...

That is not only a beautiful necklace, but a more than beautiful story.

An ANGEL she is and will ALWAYS be.

Thank you for sharing that story, Natalie.

Lots of hugs :)

Midwest Mommy said...

Oh that brought tears to my eyes.
Beautiful.

Fertility Chick said...

Wow. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful story and for showing us your necklace which holds incredible meaning and so much more. Thank you again.

Loce Us said...
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moosh in indy. said...

SOB.
So happy this all came together for you.
Brilliant stuff those ladies make.
xoxo

Amanda @ High Impact Mom said...

Oh Natalie.
Tears.
Thank you for sharing.

walkonthechildside said...

One word: Wow. Another: Beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing with us.

livinginagirlsworld said...

I am so glad that you and your husband are on the same page and in sync with each other. It is a beautiful necklace and I'm so glad that you are slowly healing and you have a good therapist. (((HUGS))) to you my dear.

Bacardi Mama said...

Oh Natalie, you have started my day with tears by tugging at my heart strings. What a beautiful story and an even more beautiful husband. Your necklace is perfect.

JayBee said...

I love this story. Everything you write, I relate to on so many levels. I love the necklace, it's so perfect.

Mrs Soup said...

That is so beautiful. Your Angel has touched so many, and made such an impression. That necklace is beautiful as well.

Beth at I Should Be Folding Laundry said...

Beautiful.

Rick Bucich said...

Very nice story! Wonderful

mrs. r said...

sobbing.

Anonymous said...

Not fair to make me cry at work right before a company meeting! Bless your heart.

Sell...Party Of 3 said...

Oh my goodness, I am bawling. Love that you shared!

Nathan and Nikki Hillery said...

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Please know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Julia said...

Beautiful. I am so glad that you decided on a name. I know it made a difference for me in healing. I wanted to share with you this link (I plan on ordering one for our Christmas tree): http://www.aplacetoremember.com/mall/subcat_list.asp?catID=5&subcatID=57.

Aunt Jen said...

Most.beautiful.story.ever. I love you Angel and always will.

Your Great Aunt Jen

kimsueellen said...

Casey is my best friend. I know this same sorrow so intensely. My heart is with you and your Angel. This story has me weaping. Love you.

Duchess said...

Beautiful. Amazing.

Sarah Viola said...

Oh, Natalie. This is so beautiful.

Love to you and Aaron and Angelina.

Anonymous said...

Natalie, this is an awesome blog. So very beautiful - thanks for sharing!

Missy and JP said...

Oh sweet Natalie! I'm so glad you have such amazing support from your hubby and that God knew well in advance that you needed this special moment together. The necklace is beautiful...wear it with pride my friend as only a mommy would do! I wish I could take the pain away for you- I believe wonderful things are just around the corner for you and in the mean time, you have such special ministry going with other couples who have walked or are walking in your shoes. Hugs! :)

Sara Joy said...

Oh Natalie, that is so beautiful.
The story, the necklace, the husband and most certainly your Angelina.
(hugs)

Em said...
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Em said...

Oh wow. This post made me cry! That is so very touching. Your Angel is with you, and your husband is so sweet. What a beautiful necklace.

I got the Seeds of Hope in the mail, they are so wonderful. I plan to plant them in the Spring. I recommend them for anyone who is heartbroken. As soon as I opened the envelope tears filled my eyes. Thank you so much.

I feel I can relate to you so much. I'm sorry we have this in common but I am glad we're not alone.

I am thinking of you and I am just so, so sorry.

www.capribythelake.com said...

what a beautiful way to remember your little angel, your husband is so sweet, and I think its amazing to see the strength of your marriage shine through as you guys grieve together. Happy Birthday, and thank you for sharing your beautiful necklace, and story with us!

Summer Willard said...

Oh my gosh! I'm so touched by this post. It is truly wonderful how the Lord works to bring us healing and let us know that He is always with us. And I think that name is just absolutely beautiful. She is an Angel dancing in heaven with Jesus. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. I pray you have a blessed day!!

Summer
www.be-simply-beautiful.blogspot.com

~love said...

oh, praise God. what a sweet little gift from Him.

He gave me so many little gifts like this on our journey to Clayton, especially while in Africa. i'd wonder to myself if i was crazy thinking He'd be talking to me in ways like this. OF COURSE He is. He is my very best friend and loves me more than i could ever imagine. of course He's finding tangible ways to comfort me.

love you.

Mimi's Toes said...

Wow, what a beautiful story! She IS truly a little Angel.

Firefly@www.firefly-shop.org said...

((HUGS)) I miss my baby too, it's been only two days since my miscarriage and I feel so lost, in so much pain :( don't know was it a boy or a girl, nothing, don't even have a ultrasound picture :(
You picked a beautiful name for your baby ((HUGS)) and that is a wonderful gift!

Anonymous said...

You are beyond beautiful. Your heart, your writing ... everything. I am so amazed by you constantly. I love you, my sweet Nat!
Barbara