Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Stuff

My grandma made us a blanket.

We have bottles and bears and pacifiers and diapers.

I told Aaron I want to keep it all. I'm not getting rid of it. I will put it in a box and not keep it out to look at. I won't be that mom. He would be creeped out by that.

I thought.

He just held me. He didn't have to say anything, I knew what he meant.

10 comments:

Gillie said...

I have a box. I get it out every once in a while. It is actually a great comfort knowing it is there.

Part of the sadness of a miscarriage is there are not really any tangible items from the baby...no pictures, no locks of hair...Nothing.

My box has baby quilts, stuffed animals, untrasounds and pictures of me when I was pregnant.

Continued prayers to you and Aaron.
Gillie

Anonymous said...

I was wondering what happens to the "stuff"? I guess you just pass it on to the next little guy? You do what makes you feel content!!I guess this is a lot like trusting and loving God,, we have never seen him, but boy we sure do love him! When you get a breathe call your old Aunt and let her know your ok!! Love you!!! Aunt Jackie

Erin said...

I think you need to do whatever you need to do with all those items... and don't worry about anything else. Let your heart guide you. So much love for you and Aaron right now.

becomingjolie said...

I truly want you to know that I love you like a sister, which is strange for how little we truly "know" each other, but my heart dropped to the ground when I read this. I don't want to offer false hope or useless tittles of "so sorry's" and "it will get better". But know that Sean and I will be praying for you. Sometimes God's ways are so different from ours that it rips us to the core.

Midwest Mommy said...

I would do the same. Hugs.

*Lissa* said...

Do whatever feels right to you. ((HUGS))

Amanda @ High Impact Mom said...

Praying for you. Loving you.

Blessedw5mom said...

I agree here ... do what feels right for YOU! I was the type that needed to hang on ... I have a box too. But a friend of mine truly felt as strongly that she needed it all out of her house, so she passed the stuff on. Pray and do what YOU need to do to beging the healing.

N said...

The Stuff is possibly the hardest. It doesn't just go away.

I'm sorry for your loss.

Shan said...

I don't follow your blog but the R House mentioned it and I thought I would come over and read. I've lost two this year and never even thought about naming mine. I know how it is to put all the stuff in a box and put it away. I feel for you completely and hope that you are doing well. I'm hoping like you that the hurt fades and I can be happy for all the pregnant women in my family. :)